So I left the training in Connecticut still aware of shaking on my left side and hoped that it would stop. At home after the two hour drive west on the interstate I had no more clarity on the subject, except for a profound sense of wellness/completeness.
I reached home in time to pat the dog and then headed over to the reiki circle in Ardsley. On the table I was worked on by the hands of a wise elder woman who held my left foot and toe for a long few minutes. The reiki energy almost made it hurt because it was so intense, but with that sensation came the memory of injurying that toe at age 10. Sewing for my younger sister on the family room rug, I stepped on the needle and the tip broke off in the joint of my big toe. I had to be hospitalized and put under general anesthesia for it to come out. What remained was thick scar around my left big toe, which has always felt stiff and sensitive. What was less apparent were the emotions: fear, worry, abandonment. I was left alone in the hospital over night and was no doubt frightened. There were lots of presents from my grandmother to play with in my recovery bed like flowering papers and metal ring puzzles, but the memory of the terror lay buried until that integration during the reiki circle some 50 odd years later. Quite powerful.
I reached home in time to pat the dog and then headed over to the reiki circle in Ardsley. On the table I was worked on by the hands of a wise elder woman who held my left foot and toe for a long few minutes. The reiki energy almost made it hurt because it was so intense, but with that sensation came the memory of injurying that toe at age 10. Sewing for my younger sister on the family room rug, I stepped on the needle and the tip broke off in the joint of my big toe. I had to be hospitalized and put under general anesthesia for it to come out. What remained was thick scar around my left big toe, which has always felt stiff and sensitive. What was less apparent were the emotions: fear, worry, abandonment. I was left alone in the hospital over night and was no doubt frightened. There were lots of presents from my grandmother to play with in my recovery bed like flowering papers and metal ring puzzles, but the memory of the terror lay buried until that integration during the reiki circle some 50 odd years later. Quite powerful.
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