OCT DAILY - Day Seventy Three FORGETTING

Aaahh what a luxury to forget and not care.   Much as I love this daily practice of writing about "one good thing"  I watched my soap opera last night (Big Little Lies on HBO) and blissfully fell into a delicious sleep.   It was morning before I realized I had reneged on my contract again.  But you know what?   I did not care.   I had created a self-imposed stress inducing deadline for myself of editing several stories and submitting them for a 3/31 deadline to various journals.    Crazy, since I haven't touched those stories since August - and totally unrealistic.  So where was all that pressure coming from?   Internal combustion? Anxiety? A senseless striving for what?   This is what I have taken away from my weekend in Connecticut: A little less intensity goes a long way.  Not having to get so wound up and letting go of some of the self imposed agenda makes for a happier me.  

I've certainly gotten to this point in other ways.   Via meditation and walking etc... but I am always genuinely grateful for this realization, especially since it comes from the body and allows for more ease, clarity and contentment.  

So that is the good thing - being able to forget and relax.   Not even Paul Ryan, Devin Nunes, Jared Kushner, Paul Manafort, and the rest of the evil clown show trying to pull a quick rabbit out of the hat on us could unsettle my calm.  Although I will admit to some nasty thoughts cast in their general direction.   Tomorrow I'll call the M of C about the need for a special investigator and Senators to block Gorsuch.   Always something to be done, but maybe with less frantic urgency.