Seventy whole days! Can you believe it? I've stuck it out and so have you dear audience. There will be no great revelations or photo essays tonight as this cowgirl is just exhausted.
And the good thing, of many, to be grateful for today was a discovery about myself and the way I practice as a therapist that was both painful and extremely useful. No growth without some discomfort! This is the result of having spent the last two full days immersed in a beginner's training in Somatic Experiencing deep in the hinterlands of Connecticut at a corporate hotel spa. Whole mornings watching lectures in cold meeting rooms and then working through emotionally exhausting training exercises. Somatic Experiencing is a body based therapeutic treatment which addresses the way we as humans regulate distressing feelings in the body and how we become dysregulated and then can learn to regulate again. It is a way for working with trauma, which effects both mind and body, but often results in body based issues.
So we were asked to work in pairs and to image, but not say while looking at our partner, "I need to fix you." Then we had to switch and think, "I trust that you have the capacity to heal yourself."
The first was very hard for me and I had to say in my head very loudly, "I NEED TO FIX YOU. I NEED TO FIX YOU. I NEED TO FIX. YOU ARE SICK. I NEED TO FIX YOU." And the while while I was girding myself and squashing the urge to send out the thought, " You are whole, you can heal yourself." I also held in my own energy as that is the resource I send to people. So it was a relief to switch and feel, "You can heal and I'm sending healing energy to you." With reiki when you send healing energy you generally receive it as well and this was my experience.
However that was not the experience of my partner who said, "The first time round I felt completely free (when I was holding myself back), but the second time I felt completely drained and restricted by you." Wow - it was a wake up call. With Reiki you really need to ask permission to give energy to another or it could be an invasion upon them. This was a reminder. In giving energy that way I had turned on the "I can fix you" wavelength, where as when I was consciously trying to hold that back I was not inflicting my need to help. It was painful reminder of my own need to impose an agenda. She did not want or need to be "fixed" by being sent reiki energy.
But it was hopeful for me in terms of the use of body energy to help people with this method which is based on intuitive sensing (like Reiki) but also really grounded in observation of body states and the neural science behind traumatic response.
I also met so many new and interesting people from physical therapists to dancers to musicians and other energy workers well as psychologists and other psychotherapists. This training will continue over three years during which I imagine we will be well bonded and make many new discoveries about ourselves, each other and our craft as healers.
Round three tomorrow - Good night
And the good thing, of many, to be grateful for today was a discovery about myself and the way I practice as a therapist that was both painful and extremely useful. No growth without some discomfort! This is the result of having spent the last two full days immersed in a beginner's training in Somatic Experiencing deep in the hinterlands of Connecticut at a corporate hotel spa. Whole mornings watching lectures in cold meeting rooms and then working through emotionally exhausting training exercises. Somatic Experiencing is a body based therapeutic treatment which addresses the way we as humans regulate distressing feelings in the body and how we become dysregulated and then can learn to regulate again. It is a way for working with trauma, which effects both mind and body, but often results in body based issues.
So we were asked to work in pairs and to image, but not say while looking at our partner, "I need to fix you." Then we had to switch and think, "I trust that you have the capacity to heal yourself."
The first was very hard for me and I had to say in my head very loudly, "I NEED TO FIX YOU. I NEED TO FIX YOU. I NEED TO FIX. YOU ARE SICK. I NEED TO FIX YOU." And the while while I was girding myself and squashing the urge to send out the thought, " You are whole, you can heal yourself." I also held in my own energy as that is the resource I send to people. So it was a relief to switch and feel, "You can heal and I'm sending healing energy to you." With reiki when you send healing energy you generally receive it as well and this was my experience.
However that was not the experience of my partner who said, "The first time round I felt completely free (when I was holding myself back), but the second time I felt completely drained and restricted by you." Wow - it was a wake up call. With Reiki you really need to ask permission to give energy to another or it could be an invasion upon them. This was a reminder. In giving energy that way I had turned on the "I can fix you" wavelength, where as when I was consciously trying to hold that back I was not inflicting my need to help. It was painful reminder of my own need to impose an agenda. She did not want or need to be "fixed" by being sent reiki energy.
But it was hopeful for me in terms of the use of body energy to help people with this method which is based on intuitive sensing (like Reiki) but also really grounded in observation of body states and the neural science behind traumatic response.
I also met so many new and interesting people from physical therapists to dancers to musicians and other energy workers well as psychologists and other psychotherapists. This training will continue over three years during which I imagine we will be well bonded and make many new discoveries about ourselves, each other and our craft as healers.
Round three tomorrow - Good night
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